Photos and Memories

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Now my darling little boy is 12 weeks old, I find myself looking back at those precious photos from when he was just born and marvelling at how much he has changed already. And also just how cute he was (and still is) of course!

We stayed in the hospital for 3 days, and on day two, when our little monkey was just a day old the bounty people came and took some photos of him. We knew they would do at some point, and we knew the second they asked that we would be sucked in and end up paying a lot of money for something we hadn't intended on doing. And of course we did. The photos were just too gorgeous to say no to, and I couldn't bear the thought of never seeing them again.

And you know what?

They are so worth the money. I would pay for them again in a heartbeat. Because we are never going to get those precious first days back. We are never going to see Zach be that tiny and fragile again. And whilst you can't tell they were taken in the hospital in the plastic crib, the photos bring back so many memories.

The way we struggled with feeding. The way Zach shook because of his low blood sugar. The way the nurses fed him formula with a tiny cup, slowly pouring it into his tiny mouth.

The smell of Zach's hair. The way that it took a couple of hours for the adrenaline to wear off before it truly hit me that I was a mother. The nerves I felt as I left him for just a minute on his own for the first time because I needed to wee and there was no one else there.

The second night in hospital when it got a bit too much and I didn't know what to do. My baby was hungry, but the health care assistants didn't agree so didn't get him any formula. Sitting through his tears and joining them with my own as I felt so guilty and hurt that I couldn't breastfeed him. I couldn't help him when he needed me the most.

But most of all. The love we felt for this little boy who we had only just met. Who immediately changed our lives and made it complete. Who shifted our sense of what was important. Who needed us wholly, but who we needed just as much.

 Because having a baby does make everything just that little bit brighter.





Super Busy Mum

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14 comments

  1. Beautiful photos. I didn't get any bounty photos done, I didn't think they would be like that at all. I love looking at photos of my children when they were babies, but I don't have any like this and kind of wish I did. Something to cherish, they really are lovely x
    #MMWBH

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    1. Thank you! I didn't expect them to be any where near as good as they are, so the second they showed me them I couldn't not get them! x

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  2. This is a lovely post thanks for sharing it :) i'm soooo excited to meet my baby now! I'm sure we'll be suckered into buying the photos too but if they're half as good as yours i wont be able to resist

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    1. Good luck with everything! I would definitely let them take the photos, you don't have to commit to anything!

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  3. Oh how gorgeous!! He is so cute!! Well worth it I would say :)

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  4. Awww they are fantastic photos =) adorable!!

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  5. Waaaay to PMS-hormonal for these! Too cute!

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  6. These are beautiful!! He looks like a little doll!! I LOVE the Bounty photos and I always look forward to having them taken (I say Always as if I`ve had about 12 children...i`ve only done it twice?!) xx

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    1. Haha!! If we have another I'm definitely getting them again! Was so shocked at how good they were! :) xx

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  7. Oh my days your new little bundle is just too precious for me to cope with! His hair is the most gorgeous colour. Congratulations, he's a handsome little guy! Thanks for linking up! #MMWBH

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    1. Haha thank you!! He's got the most wonderful coloured hair! :) xx

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