365 Days

Thursday, May 28, 2015

This time last year my life couldn't have been more different to what it is like now. 

I had just finished my final exams at university and I didn't even know if I had passed my degree. I had finally moved back to Cambridge after 3 years in Bristol and had just begun living with Jono properly for the first time - squished into one room in a shared house. We lived with all our friends, we ate out most nights and went out to pubs and bars most evenings. I was job hunting and getting excited about summer - I assumed I'd be spending it drinking Pimms and kayaking down the river.

I had been missing periods for a while, not every single one but every other. I thought that maybe there was something wrong, perhaps I had polycystic ovaries or something similar. So when I missed another period I thought nothing of it, and booked an appointment with the doctor so I could find out if there was something wrong. The day before my appointment I decided to take a pregnancy test so that when the doctor asked me if I was 100% sure I wasn't pregnant I would know for sure.

When I took the test it came back with a plus sign and my first reaction was that the symbol meant that the test hadn't worked properly. I even had a shower before going to check the box because I was so sure that it wasn't positive - but of course it was. I sent a photo of the pregnancy test along with one of the box to Jono while he was at work, and that is how he found out he was going to be a dad. In hindsight I wish I had waited until he got home from work, but it was a massive shock and I needed him.

I walked to boots and bought a digital test just to make sure that I was definitely pregnant. Of course I didn't really need to, one is enough, but I just couldn't quite believe it! Surprise surprise, it came back positive - I was 100% definitely pregnant. Jono and I were going to become parents, and our lives were about to change forever. I spent that day feeling pretty terrified about the future and very upset. I've always wanted to be a mum, but it wasn't at all how I'd thought it would happen and I just didn't know how we could possibly figure it all out.

"Life is what happens to you while you're busy making other plans"

Right now I'm sat here exactly 365 days later with my little baby asleep in his moses basket. It's been the craziest year of my life - I've graduated, found a job, given birth and started this blog. My life looks very different now - no more eating out or spending all night at the bar with a G&T. But do you know what? I couldn't be happier! Having Zach was the best thing that has ever happened to us, and I love him more than I thought I could ever love someone.

I wonder what the next year will bring!


  1. Aw amazing! It's so weird thinking how different our lives could be! You sound really happy :)


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