Letting Go Of Baby Clothes

Wednesday, June 17, 2015


When I was pregnant one of the things that I was the most excited about was shopping for clothes for my baby. Jono used to tell me that he wasn't a doll, and that I didn't need to spend so much money on what he would wear because it didn't matter - "our baby will look cute even if he wears a bin bag". But of course I took no notice of him because buying all of those teeny tiny vests and socks filled me with so much joy and excitement. Even whilst we still lived in one room in a shared house I had a box where I kept all of Zach's clothes neatly folded and ready for his arrival.

The first outfit we bought him is still my favourite. We chose a little soft white dungaree and safari vest set from The Little White Company just after our 12 week scan. I spent so long dreaming about our baby who was growing in my stomach wearing the little outfit. I washed it and folded it, storing it in my hospital bag ready for the big day. It was the outfit that Zach wore home from the hospital, and I'm so upset that I didn't take more photos of him in it. Although they are just clothes, that little outfit is so important to me as it holds so many memories.

Another outfit of Zach's that means a lot is the little sleepsuit he wore in the photos we had taken in the hospital when he was just one day old. I had packed mainly plain white sleepsuits because I think that they are so classic and I wanted the first photos of my little baby to be timeless. I had packed one patterned sleepsuit which had a beautiful illustration of some animals on the front, and in the end this was the one that he wore for his photoshoot. And it was perfect. It's another outfit I won't be able to part with because of the memories attached to it.

But it's not just these two outfits that mean a lot to me, it's all of them. Everything that Zach has ever worn, and even the things he hasn't, mean so much to me. They represent the love I had for him before I had even met him. Washing and folding all of his clothes, organising them neatly in his drawers ready for his big arrival. They act as a reminder that my baby is not a tiny newborn anymore, and that every day he is getting bigger and bigger until one day he will be an adult just like me. And there are the clothes that our friends and family bought for Zach, that show just how many people love and care for Zach.

We've just got out Zach's 3-6 month wardrobe, which means I've been sorting out all of the clothes that he no longer fits into. I know that he won't be able to wear them again but for some reason the thought of giving them away makes me feel so sad. I've made a pile of things that I can't bear to get rid of, that will be folded neatly into a box and put into storage. There is also a big pile to go to charity, which Jono will be taking because I just don't want to let them go.

I feel so silly, they are just clothes. But to me they are so much more than that.

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  1. I have got a ridiculous amount of baby clothes from newborn up to 18-24 months, and I can't find the space to store them anymore. A lot of it is in bags at my mum's house. Some of the things I will never get rid of - especially the handknit things - but my reason for keeping them is I hold onto the hope that someday I'll have another baby who can wear them. Getting rid of them would be like saying I'm never going to have another newborn in the house and I'm not really ready for that. x

    #sharewithme

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    1. It's so hard to let them go isn't it? I felt like that too, about it meaning accepting that you won't have another newborn, but in some ways if we had another baby I'd like to buy them a lot of their own things so they have their own special things too xx

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  2. Oh, I'm really glad this is not just me! It's not even just the clothes - I want to hold on to all the toys they grow out of too! #sharewithme

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    1. Definitely not alone!! We haven't got to that stage yet but I'm sure I'll be exactly the same! xx

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  3. Are they not just so diddy and small?! I have a memory box but I'm tryting to make a promise to have only one :)

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    1. I have a bag which I'm sure will soon become a box, just of the things that are the most important to me! xx

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  4. I have kept all of M's clothes..I have them in age appropriate bags and hopefully one day I will get to use them again! :-) #sharewithme xx

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  5. Its so hard to let go of things that had helped you and been with you with this journey. I know how you feel and I feel the same. Even now that my son is 5 I still cant let go of so much stuff! #sharewithme

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    1. IT's just so hard to let go isn't it? I'm trying so hard! xx

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  6. It really is hard to let go. I was holding on to so many clothes until I had a one boy and one girl and I realized I couldn't store them forever so I had two large teddy bears made of their first few outfits favorites from Cute as a button and then I sold the rest on ebay. I did make a lot on ebay for them and used to to buy more for them. Which was a huge bonus. Loved other kids can love them now too. It's still hard to let go though. Thanks for linking up to Share With Me #sharewithme

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    1. Making teddy bears is such a good idea, I might just have to do that!! xx

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