It's been a bit quiet in these parts this month which is a little unusual for me but I have had a lot on my plate and we have been very busy. We have reached the end of my maternity leave, and after thinking that I would stay home with Zach for a few more months I have been offered a new job! It is something I spotted when having a browse online to see what was available and it jumped straight out at me. I applied on a whim thinking that I wouldn't get it but that I would definitely give it a go, and that if I was offered it I would definitely accept. It is a role which is a massive step up for me, and I'm hoping that it will make a huge difference to my life in the years to come.
Whilst I am so excited to start my new job, I have been experiencing some really mixed emotions over the past few weeks. I'll only be working part time, however over the past 9 months I haven't spent much time apart from Zach so it will be a massive change. Thankfully we have been able to arrange childcare with family so for now he won't be in nursery, but it is something we have been thinking about. In the future we want him to be in nursery one day a week as we want him to be able to socialise with other children. I know it would do him the world of good and he would have so much fun but I am not ready to let go just yet. I can't bear to think about people I don't even know spending the day with my beautiful boy when it could be me. All I can think about is how he might get upset and I wouldn't be there to comfort him.
I'm also really scared about starting my job because it will be a massive change from working in retail. I will be working in an office environment which I am really looking forward to but it will be a whole new experience for me. So far though, everyone has been overwhelmingly helpful and kind, so I'm sure that after the first few weeks I will find my feet. I'm so lucky that my new job is really flexible, and I was able to choose my hours, days and start date, and in the future will be able to work from home. It really is a dream come true for me, and it couldn't be more perfect for balancing work and baby.
It's hit me that although I've spent the past nine months at home, there's still so much I want to do with Zach and I haven't been anywhere near as productive as I thought I would be. I hope that as I will still have 4 and a half days with Zach each week that we can start doing more classes and baby groups as well as go swimming more often. These are things I fully intended to do but we haven't really done which upsets me as I do worry that we don't do enough activities for Zach.
I am pleased though that I've kept writing here on my little corner of the internet. I've captured so many of our memories, made some great friends and kept my brain functioning. I think it helped me to secure my new job too, as it has given me a lot of online experience both with websites and social media. I am enjoying sharing our story and I still can't quite believe that anyone wants to read what I have to say! So thank you, because you've made my journey as a mother a million times easier. The support through the comments and tweets I receive really has made a difference, and I am so happy to be part of the blogging community!
Over the next few weeks my writing might be a bit sporadic whilst I get to grips with my new life as a working mum. I'm sure that once I'm settled into my new routine things will return to usual, my life will just be a bit more hectic than before! I have one week left of maternity leave and I intend to go wild! I have a trip to London planned which I am so excited for, and a lunch date with Ellie and Theo to look forward to. I hope you've all had a great week, thank you for stopping by! Please let me know in the comments any tips you have for balancing work and baby!
Linking up with Katie from Mummy Daddy Me for the Ordinary Moments.