{The Ordinary Moments} #30 - Days Off

09:05

This month, with me starting work, our ordinary has shifted quite a bit. After 8 months of spending every day together, Zach and I now have a couple of days apart each week. I was so worried about how the changes would affect us. Would Zach get really upset that I wasn't there? Would I feel upset leaving him every day? Would our bond still be as strong if we spent less time together? The questions haunted me for weeks. It was all I could think about, and although I knew we were making the right decision it didn't stop me worrying.


And so I started work. I was nervous, but more than that I was excited. On my first day I didn't cry when I left Zach the way I thought I might. And if I'm honest, leaving him hasn't bothered me once over the past two weeks. Of course, I needn't have worried about Zach either because I'm pretty sure he hasn't even noticed I've been gone! Instead he's been having so much fun with his daddy and his Omi. I love that he has time with them both one on one, and I've been really enjoying the break.

It's hard sometimes to admit that although you love your baby more than anything, sometimes it can all get a bit too much. I love spending time with Zach, but after 8 months together almost every day I was so ready for that break work offered. A chance to recharge my batteries. Have some adult conversation. Use my brain. Meet new people and pursue new opportunities. I've loved every second of it and I think that it's actually made me a better mum.

On Thursday it was my day off and Zach and I had the whole day together with no set plans. Although we've spent so many days together, this one couldn't have been more different. I wanted to sit on the floor and play instead of it feeling like a chore. I barely touched my phone, because every second looking at the screen was one I wasn't spending with my baby. We sat, sharing pitta pizzas and watching Peter Pan and I realised how much my boy has grown. Every cuddle he gave me felt so much sweeter, and I didn't want the day to end. It felt like we'd grown closer despite being apart, maybe it's true what they say: absence makes the heart grow fonder.

After two days apart time felt so much more precious than ever before. I worried about how starting work would change things, but it's turned out that things are even better than they were before. I'm so lucky that I only work part time, and for us it's a balance that works. I still get days with my baby, but I get a chance to be me too. I get to focus on who I am aside from being a mum, and already I'm feeling so much happier in myself. I'm finding the energy to do the things I loved pre-baby again, so watch out because there may be some baking posts coming your way as I'm getting back into baking! And if you're worried about going back to work, try not too - I promise it's not as hard as you think it will be.

Zachy and me

Linking up with Katie from Mummy Daddy Me for the Ordinary Moments.

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8 comments

  1. Glad your feeling better about it and enjoying those days off - he is getting so big and loving that little smile of his with the odd teeth in there ahha x #OrdinaryMoments

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    1. Thank you Mary! He is growing so fast now it's a little scary! xx

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  2. It really is amazing how much more precious time gets when you have time apart. It sounds like you have a great balance with work x

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    1. Definitely! I think I'm definitely getting the best of both worlds right now! xx

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  3. Awww you have made me feel SO much more positive about going back to work next week, thank you. Glad all is going well!! x x

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    1. Aww that's good sweet, it's really no where near as bad as I thought it would be! You will be great!!! xx

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  4. Aw look at that photo you both look so happy. Just gorgeous. And I agree, I totally respect SAHM's because as much as I adore my children I just need that little bit of time to just recharge my batteries and be me. It sounds like you are doing so well lovely, I am glad work is going well and that you relish your time off with your gorgeous boy. x

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    1. It's made such a difference and I really didn't expect to enjoy being at work as much as I do xx

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