{The Ordinary Moments 2016} #19 - Mummy's Boy

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I am needy.

I always have been, and probably always will be. Since the moment Zach was born all I have wanted is cuddles with my sweet little boy, goodnight kisses, and to hold his hand as we walk down the street. I dream about snuggling on the sofa with him, with hot chocolates, watching a disney film, and I long for the nights when he gets out of his bed and invades ours.

But ever since he's been able to move, Zach has always tried to avoid my grasp. He will climb off my lap and move to the other end of the sofa to watch Cbeebies. He will pull his hand out of mine when I try to hold it, and he will wriggle his way out of my arms when I hold him. He's never been the biggest fan of kisses either and has always wanted his space. And as much as I respect it, I can't help but find it hard.

Over the past week or two however, I've noticed that things have started to change a little, and slowly but surely he's showing me more affection than ever. At the park he grabs my hand and drags me up onto the climbing frame with him, or he pulls me up to the top of the slide so that we can go down together. He loves to sit on my lap and read book after book, and he will happily sit with me on the sofa whilst we watch Bing or Thomas the Tank Engine (over, and over, and over again).

But the most shocking thing of all is that he's actually been clingy, at times wants nothing more than being held by his mama; no one else will do. Of course it's always at the most inconvenient times, like when I'm cooking dinner, but I can't explain how happy it makes my heart. I finally feel like he needs me, and it's the best feeling in the world.

This photo was snapped just yesterday when we were out walking in the countryside. Although for the most part he was still fiercely independent on the walk back to the car he wouldn't budge unless he knew I was right there beside him. Whenever I stopped he would come and reach up to be carried, not wanting to part from me. And I'm so happy that I managed to capture it forever, a photo of my mummy's boy.

I'm sure this won't last for long; it most definitely won't last forever. So I'm holding on to every last second that my little boy clings to me.

And I'm still hoping that when he's a little older he'll want to snuggle on the sofa and drink hot chocolate with me whilst watching disney.

And our bed will always be a safe refuge from a nightmare or a thunder storm, should he ever need it.

And my heart will always belong to him, my little boy, my Zachary.

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8 comments

  1. This is so lovely Chantal. He is so, so gorgeous - those eyes! xx

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  2. Aww bless - he is such a gorgeous little boy I can see why you'd need all the snuggles you can get while he's still little enough to scoop up in a hug :)

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    1. Oh thank you Carie! He really is so gorgeous! xx

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  3. That is such a gorgeous photo Chantal. And I know from reading your blog how much you yearn for the affectionate side of him to come out- definitely sounds like it is! Long live the cuddles from his Mama! xx

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    1. Thank you Katie - feels like my dreams are all coming true! xx

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  4. Such a lovely post and I'm glad you are getting all the cuddles. My little boy is such an affectionate little thing and I love it, those times when we are snuggling on the couch watching tele are some of my favourite moments! xx

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    1. Oh thank you, there really is nothing better than snuggles xx

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