Slowing Down and Switching Off

Tuesday, April 25, 2017

Over the past year or so I've begun to find it hard to focus on one thing at a time. If I'm watching telly I'm also scrolling through Pinterest or if I'm reading a book I'm putting it down every ten minutes to check for notifications. I am addicted to my phone, and the social media that I access through it, and I really need to break the hold it has on me.

I'm so angry at myself for getting to this point, and it's a little bit embarrassing actually writing this post, but I doubt I'm the only one who is like this. I so often find myself mindlessly scrolling, and it means I'm not really focused on the here and now. I'm missing out on so much of my own life, whilst busy consuming information about other people's.

And it doesn't just affect me, it affects Zach too. I'm so conscious that not only am I not giving him my full attention, but that he is going to grow up thinking it is okay to be glued to a screen as that is what he sees. He is just two, and already knows how to use both my phone and the iPad, and whilst he doesn't get to use either for very long, the mum guilt is real. I want to give him the attention he deserves, and at the moment I'm not sure he's getting it, but I at the moment I'm finding it so hard to switch off.

I think that part of the problem is 'being a blogger', and I feel as though I'm not getting the balance right between sharing my life and living it. Not only that, but I am always comparing my life to the lives that I see online, and using other people's highlight reels as an escape from my reality. When I'm struggling with a tantruming toddler it is so much easier to scroll through Instagram looking at the pretty pictures, than it is to deal with the shit that's really going on.

I want things to change; I want to enjoy the simple things again and break away from living my life glued to a screen. I want to properly lose myself in a novel, and enjoy a cup of tea without scrolling through my timeline seeing the same things over and over again. I want to sit outside and hear the birds chirping, instead of sitting reading tweets. I want to take a big step back, slow down, and switch off - at least a more often than I do now. I doubt you'll get rid of me completely.

In fact, I kind of think that slowing down will make me a better blogger. I'll actually be living my life again, so I will have a life to blog about again. I will be able to share content about the things that bring me joy, because I will be experiencing joy again. I have so many ideas; of things that I want to do and things that I want to share. I am brimming with motivation, and I think that this might just be the key to releasing my creativity.


So, over the next few weeks I'm going to start making a few small changes, and give myself some set time without my phone or MacBook. I'm going to physically put them out of reach, and use the time to focus on something that will make my soul happy instead. I hope to find joy in the simple things again, and I've put together a little list of things I want to do:

bake a loaf of bread
go on a long walk and leave my phone at home
sand down and re paint the bench in the garden - something I've put off since last year
read the unread books on my bookshelf
do a puzzle
bake blueberry muffins for breakfast
grow a herb garden from seeds
make my own playdough for Zach
try yoga
drink loose leaf tea
go for an impromptu picnic
practice my breathing
read more often with Zach
make a cocktail
write a poem
practice my brush lettering
make a scrap book for Zach
go through my things and get rid of everything I no longer need
paint my nails
take long bubble baths with a good book
set up tuff spot activities for Zach
make lemon curd
use my bullet journal properly
sit in the garden and read my book whilst Zach naps
try meditating
listen to vinyl
visit somewhere new
do more cleaning, possibly, maybe..

I'm really excited about making these changes, and trying some new things. I hope that if you feel the same way that I do you will think about how you too can slow down and switch off from the constant buzz that is the internet. And if you have any ideas of things I could add to my list, please do let me know in the comments!

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  1. THIS. Oh my god, I literally nodded along to every single word. I have been feeling the same lately and I feel like I really need to disconnect sometimes and focus on the small things. I think writing a list is such a fab idea and you have some lovely things on there too! xxx

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    1. Thank you lovely - I am so glad I am not alone in my boat, and let me know what is on your list if you write one! xxx

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